Update .
Yesterday , update halfway .
Din post up in th end .
Too tired .
Went sleepinq instead .
Today , im not in th mood .
I made someone anqry aqain .
I did wronq thinqs aqain .
1 . Din inform him .
2 . Usinq someone hp instead of others .
3 . Im in fault .

I was sick , so din went sch .
went polyclinic .
Din inform him , my fault .
I apoloqise , sorry .
Thn , iie went meet edwina && panphila .
Edwina's phone no money ,
Panphila's bill burst ,
I use someone phone to contact him instead of others .
my fault once aqain , Im sorry aqain
&& iie apoloqise .

Hes super anqry && disappointed in me .
I know tht .
He said tht im annoyinq .
I shuld have knw tht .
I shouldnt be soo annoyinq .
wantinq to stick to him too much .
I understand how he feels .
but , who understands how iie feel .
I wanted him to care for me ,
love me && just showed , showered me with more love of his .
Thinqs jus turned out opposite .
He asked me not to fan him ,
&& iie will .
Im sorry .


Hope tht after he anqry finish ,
he would come back to me .
Somehow iie feel ,
he won't .
Santa , qrant my wish .
i just hope he could be happy .
Its my fault , all my fault ..
Im jus not fit enouqh to be his qirlfriend .
Theres some other qirls are thr better thn me isnt ?.
To reply to his bloq ,
iie still love him .
I would never said tht out .
Cause , im still in love with him .
18 more days .
Could we qo further && qo throuqh obstacles tqtr ?.
Trust , ..
His trust in me
&& my trust in him is jus not stronq enouqh .

Genie , ..
how iie wish he could spend abit mre time with me .
Jus abit mre .
I don't wish to ask much .
Just mre time with him ,
&& wo yi man zu lers .

Its breaks my heart .

Weiren , woaieni .

I love those peoples above :D

&& weiren too .

Din have his pics :x

I had qreat fun with them this few days .

Hohoho .!

Sorry for not updatinq my bloq .

Din have th time && too tired to update .

Recently , keep on qoinq out with

Waikit , Edwina , Panphila && Taochenq .

Fun fun fun .!

Idk wht to updae alr ley .

Alot of thinqs happened .

But , forqot almst half of it .

Let me rewind abit thn briefly talk abt this few days .

WEDNESDAY .

iie forqt alr .

SKIPPPPPPPPP :x

THURSDAY .

lalalas .

went out with edwina they all .

accompany her to polyclinic .

Thn , edwina they all qo lalalas .

pei waikit wait for his turn to see th doctor .

Next , find edwina they all .

She qo take her medicine .

Thn , qo panphila's house .

Watched kids central ; Dora th explorer .

Edwina && I response to th TV .

Now , think of it . Abit retarted eh .

Busedd to JP .

Meet weiren , they off to arcade .

Played ddr .

Weiren && me qo eat . th rest , qo play .

Done eatinq , qo mac find them .

lalalaas .

Go 946 .

Chinleh vs weiren .

Whooooo .

lalalalas .

Slack slack slack .

went home .

TODAY .

Din went school .

Overslept .

Wokeup at 12 .

Online awhile , qo bath .

Meet edwina , qo find panphila they all .

Awhile ltr , waikit , taochenq && kenneth came .

lalalas .

went ahboy house .

Stand outside thr , sinq sinq sinq .

Thn , qo playqround slack .

Waikit sit on th thinq thinq ,

iie qo push arund .

Wahahahas .!

Lalalalas .

Went 946 awhile , went home .

Say wann qo dwn der , in th end , never lers .

Now , bloqqinq :D

Off cookinq instant noodle .

Im hunqry aqain :x

Niqhts everyone .

My dear , dear friends , dunn puff puff too much horhh .

Takecare of ue all der health :D

Thanks for all those fun eh .

Those sad der , cheerup .

Those happy der , continue happy .

Those hyper der , qoes mre hyper .!

♥ VENUSS `

Update .
Oks .
Briefly talk abt wht happened today .
Morninq , went schh .
SCHOOL .! ~
After school , went school library with Fiona awhile .
Thn , qo Juronq lake while waitinq for ysenq .
Chat with Guekchee , Fiona && Saunders .
Ysenq damn slow laas , oks ?.
Actually meetinq Edwina der .
Due to too late alr , jiu meiyou meet lers .
Edwina needs reach home at five .
Go kopitiam eat lunch ,
Bused home .
Reach home , fa dai der whole day .

I din keep on to my promise .
I really din cared about his feelinqs .
This time , im really wronq .
I shuld have inform him earlier .
Forqet to msqq him , isnt an excuse .
Im sorry for wht ive done .
I hope everythinq doesnt qoes wronq =x
Duibuqi . I knw uure hurt .

A update to those past events .

July , worst month of this year .
I burned my finqer today durinq dnt .
Dnt period is always a " injurinq period " for me .
Yesterday , that stupid screwdriver hit me while im screwinq th screw .
Its not th screwdriver which moved , is th stupid hands of mine .
Din even knw how to hold it properly
&& today qot burned by th thinqy .

Yesterday yesterday , hit by netball on my left eye durinq PE :x
Th ball jus fly over && my face qot smack by it .
Stupid rebounce of th ball .

This few days , im totally moodless .
Because of th brkup .
I still love him as much as last time .
It has been th most saddeninq thinq for me , seriously .
I keep tellinq myself , iie must be happy .
I must not let my friends , sisters , family && him especially ,
worry about me .
But ,
Whenever im alone , iie would think of him && tears will start to form .
I miss him . I wonder did he think of me ?.
He seems to be much more happier without me .
Did my presence make him not happy ?.
Sometimes , I just hope tht iie could be with him aqain .
Proof to him that iie really love him
&& make him understands my feelinqs towards him .
Stupid isnt ?. Haas .
But still , Im qoinq to wait .
Wait till th day when he discover im still there for him .
I hope that day comes .
Sayinq qoodbye to eachother , its hurtinq .
I din reqret steadinq with him neither do iie hate him .
As lonq as hes happy , whatever iie do is just worth it .
Im smilinq on th outside , bleedinq in th inside .
Althouqh , it hurts .
But , iie still have th urqe to be by his side && shares my everythinq with him .
I miss him , iie really do .
I really hope hes doinq fine .
Upon hearinq tht hes emo , im worried .
How iie wish im just riqht beside of him && cheer him up .
Instead of watchinq frm faraway , hidinq .
In my heart , theres always a place for him , waitinq for him to be back .
I cherish him but , why did iie still lose him ?.
This question have been with me eversince th brkup .
Yesterday , iie passed-by alot of places .
Filled with memories of this past two months .
I miss those times when he ride me home .
I always feel safe with him by my side .
It all flashed passed my mind .
His concentration when hes playinq basketball ,
Everythinq he did .
Those photos he laminated for me ,
his smile && lauqhters .
I watched th thinqy iie made for him on our first month .
I really enjoyed .
But now ,
I just couldnt smile && lauqh like last time .
I feel tht im wearinq a mask with a smiley on it .
Just puttinq up an act of beinq happy .
Who really understands how im feelinq ?.
No one iie quess .
Its terrible .
I quess , those words are true .
Lovinq someone , is to tolerate && qive in .
Willinq to sacrifise for him .
For now , iie quess iie could only see him frm far
&& wish hes happy .

他 , 永远都不会了解我对他的暧昧 .
我只好相信他总有一天会回来 ,
期待着 , 盼望着 那一天会实现 .
星星 , 这是我想实现的愿望 .

Thanks these people for beinq there for me .

Fiona , Yeesenq , Iris , Isabella , Weitinq , Guekchee ,
Edwina , Dennon , Benjamin && Junze .
xiexie .!

oks oks .
I feel that th sky is pretty aqain .
Its look so calm && blue (:

Im in th room now ,
th small && messy lit room in th corner of my house .
At this moment of time ,
iie feel that its cozy .
Blue sky above my head && breeze wind blowinq into me .
RELAXING .!

6.30pm of 130708 , Sunday .
Im bored , so im bloqqinq aqain .

I passed by two-ee-three bloq ,
memories flashed back .

IMISSTHOSEPASTS ._.
sec2 life && stuffs (:
science centre , class outinq .
Go throuqh everythinq tqtr (:
Sports day ,
" peanut butter maqqie cup .
ue mess with us , we kick ur butt :DD .!"
BBQ at Mrfoo's condo :D
Crap tqtr , study tqtr .
Camp tqtr .! (:

But , now no mre :x

Jus ate some fried chicken .
Yummm :x
oks , im full .
Tml , schools aqain .
Compass proqram for 2days .
Rawrrs .!
Bored to death ._.

♥ VENUSS `

SUNDAY .!

It suppose to be a happy one .
But , iie dunn feel happy at all .

I reqret , iie truly reqret .

I reqret wht i've done && makinq him upset .

I shuld have jus aqree to him ,

&& not ask soo much .

Now , it became like this .

wo zhi zao der .

By all means , its my own doinqs to brouqht upon this .

HORROR HORROR HORROR .!

Everythinq seems so not fine to me .
I no lonqer see hopes .
Its has been 4days alr .
4days have passed && iie din qet to see him once .
How iie wish at this moment he could appears riqht infront of me .
How iie wish iie could jus hold him tiqht .
I miss him terribly .
Im soo lost .
Without him , somethinq just not riqht .
Those thinqs he left for me ,
still lies his warmth .
Beside me always , his warmth but not him .

我总感觉到周围快要下雨 .
可以让我再去拥有吗 ?.
我想被他保护 , 我不想自己一个 .
我很自私 , 我知道 .
但愿你 不要放开我 . 握紧我 .

He told me , after sometimes he would say everythinq out .
But now , he would keep everythinq into his heart .
I'll be waitinq till th day he speaks .
Tht will be th day i'll smile (:
Ilovehim .
Im willinq to sacrifise && wait .
I trust him && his decision .
In th meantime ,
Im on my own .

V e n u s , J I A Y O U U S .!

只愿你会快乐 .

To Baby :

Baby , cheerups oks ?.
I apoloqise if iie make ue upset .
Sometimes , iie really dunnknw whr iie did wronq .
Even if it not me ,
iie really hope ue will stay happy && stuffs .

有你的什么故事我都好想了解 .
请让我听
你的疲惫和恐惧
我想去保护
你倔强到极限的心
让我撑起所有爱围成风雨的禁地
狂风豪雨
想让你喘口气和医治你被划破的信心
未来 看不清
就紧紧地拥抱去传递能量和勇气
哪里都一起去
一起仰望星星 一起走出森林
一起品尝回忆 一起误会妒忌
一起雨过天晴 一起更懂自己
一起找到意义

让我好吗 ?.

SATURDAY .!
ILOVEIT <3s
Im soo look forward of it .
No school , qet to sleep all iie wann && relax .!
iie sprain dao my stoopid wrist .
henq , is left wrist not riqht :x

YESTERDAY .!
Great fun (:
Went to school .
Lesson && lessonn .
After school , went home .

Meet Guekchee ;
Multi purpose hall , 4pm .

Went Fiona's house to take liqhtstick (:
Off to school .
Pass it to Fiona , slack at school .
Help Guekchee with her qeoq project .
Alot ppl ask me peii them qo washroom on tht day ._.
Help Abby with her hair :D
Damn nice laas , oks ?.
Fiona look damn pretty lors .
But , still din manaqed to take any pictures with her .
iie shuld have taken afew before iie qo lor .

Got chased up to class for assemble .
Seated ._.
Arranqe till soo behind :x
In conclusion , its not a qood seat , with qood views .
ARTS FEST , START :D
Band ,
Yuanchinq idol .
Chinese dance ,
Malay dance ,
Indian dance ,
Hip hop dance ,
Drama && more .
Hiphop && Yuanchinq idol is th most attractive over thr .
Idk how to describe .
Super entertaininq .!
I was like soo damn stoopid laas .
I bend th liqhtstick too much ,
thn , th liquid insde flow out .
Th nxt moment , my hands was filled with th liquid .
My uniform tio also .
Super suay laas .
After th whole thinq , went kopitiam with Guekchee .
Brouqht fries .
Th " Korkor " qive alot alot of fries :DDD
Meet dao Yeesenq ,
Thn , went home tqtr .
Reach home , arund 12 lers .
Super tired .
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep .! ._.


TODAY .!

Hohoho .!
Th weather is soo damn qood laas (:
I reqret not qoinq out .
I shuld have jio someone out luhs or ,
went out with my cousin && his friends .

Iris ,
iie update alr laas .
IM BOREDD .!
Im sooo piq :x
iie wokeup at 2plus in th afternoon .
Super tired laas .
Due to yesterday . IMISSYESTERDAY ._.
Someone made me disappointed aqain .
Well , im quite used to it alr .
Kuku man pei me chat with phone just now (:
I came across th story of havin sex with corspe && eatinq human's flesh .
I read out to him .
He was like , GROSS .!
Overall , its disqustinq laas .
Search for qhost stories online just now too .
Its scared me out of wits .
Now , im bloqqinq .
GOSHH .! Th sky is soo pretty .! :D

Theres only 4 reasons tht can make ue feel th sky pretty .
1 . ue are in LOVE ._.
2 . ue are stress && ue see th sky while ue are relaxinq .
3 . uure happy o.<
4 . uure sad .__.

Im thinkinq wht reasons suit me :x

RAWRRS .!
O.O'''
Ohqoshhh .!
I frm 2.30pm post till 7.30pm .
5hrs ley :x
Hmms ,
Overall ; VENUS IS HAPPY (:

♥ VENUSS `

He din takecaare aqnn .!

I knw he busy laas .

But , why couldnt jus he takecare abit mre .

All iie wish is now ,

he could qet bettr .

dunn hurt his leqs anymre lers .

Its really hurts me laas .

Haiis .

Moreover , we both din have much time on meetinq up alr .

This few days , iie really been thinkinq wht has he been doinq ?.

He qot eat marr ?.

qot takecare marr ?.

Did he sleep early , is he sick ?.

How is he feelinq now ?.

Is he upset with anythinq or anqry with somethinq ?.

iie din knw anythinq uhs .

Im super worried .

Jus hopinq tht he could be fine .

Tht would be my wish for now .

Is like , im in suspense with everythinq he does .

I hope tht iie could understand him abit more .

Tht would make me fanq xia xin .

♥ VENUSS `

Toblerone , Iris baobei qive me der :D

MONDAY .!

Wokeup . went ICA with baby (:

Actually , dunnwann qo with him lers .

In th end , still qo with him .

so qlad tht iie went with him .!

meet baby at MRT station .

Train-edd ,

Destination : Lavender .

MRT damn full uhs .

Stupid human , din even wann to qiveup seat to him .

Somemre , thr still write SOO BIG .!

" Giveup seats to those people in need . "

Rawrrs .!

Mayb , to them ,

its in Greek rather thn Enqlish .

At ICA ,

As usual , took number from th counter .

Today , kam henq uhs .

Din even have to wait :D

At th counter ,

saw a bushy hu xu man .

Pianq eh , he super wht laas .

Attitude sucks like hell .

keep on use those chim chim phrases on us .

Somemore , still criticise ppl .

Th thinq he talks abt ,

some of them oso no link der lor .

Hope his mouth rot .! :x

" Dont put th words into my mouth . "

*lauqhs .!

" Dont tampered with documents , ue may qet charqe of it . "

*LAUGHS .!

I din throw words into his mouth lor .

Stupidd man .

Did we even tampered with th documents ?.

NOO .!

*claps finqer .!

Haas . his words din even qo throuqh his brain .

Went Yishun find Baby der papa .

Thn , back to ICA aqain .

Saw tht stoopid bushy man aqain .

" I din say iie dunnwann der date "

Fee like slappinq him laas .

WTH .

Towards those " customers " ,

can he atleast have some RESPECT for them ?.

Baby still can bear with him .

If its not at ICA , iie sure shout at him der lor .

Walked to MRT station .

Train to Boonlay qot problem .

wait till nxt train .

Still as full as jus now .

Chat with baby on th way back .

Poor leqs of his .

Hope his leq faster heal (:

Reached Juronqpoint ,

qo separate ways .

Went home .

Blahblahblahhh :x

Went out aqain after my marmiie qo for work .

Went Juronqeast with Iris .

Take neo .

Everytime oso din succeed takinq nice neoprints with her .

Promise to retake with her aqain (:

I din knw how iie walk .

walk walk walk , slippers fly off :x

Super paisehh uhs .

After takinq neos ,

Train-edd home .

At Juronqeast , walk to wronq platform .

Thn , qo pass throuqh th red line train .

Tht train , qo close door .

Stuck inside .

RAWRRRS .!

Mus aliqht at BukitBatok thn sit back aqain .

Reached home ,

BLOGGING :D .

Not feelinq well .

Maybe , tml not qoinq school :x

♥ VENUSS `

Baby , iimissue .

Rmb to eat medicine horhh .!

If not , dunn talk to ue for oneday :x

I shall post short .
New bloqskin && everythinq updated .!

Din went out today .
Actually , qoinq out wit Iris they all der .
But , she last minute couldnt qo .
Thn , we like tua YeeSenq :x

Baby told me he injured his leq .
BOTH leqs .
iie was like OMG .! :x
Poor baby .
He seems to be in qreat pain .
He told me tht he pain till couldnt sleep .
He went to th doctor jus nw .
nd yet , th doctor say nothinq .!
He pain till liddat still nothinq :x
Th doctor cfm is sot diao der luhh [ No offence ] .

IMISSFIONA :x

Got forced by my marmiie to qo cook spaqhetti .!
Anyway , its not funny lor .
Idk why soo many lauqh because of tht :x

Th rest of th time ,
sleep , use com && listeninq to sonqs .
Thts my sunday :DD
I havent done any of my hwk :x
Im dead .!

Ltr , qoinqq to ICA wit baby :DD
keliann der bendan .!
leq pain till liddat still mus qo soo far .
I qo slp lers .
If not , ltr cannot wakeup in time .
Niqhts everyone :DD

✖ . ♥
♥ VENUSS `
LoveWeiren :D


Baby , takecare of urself .
Espeacially of ur leqs , oks ?.

Baby with tonque stick out o.<

ILOVESATURDAY .!
Wokeup at arund 12plus .
Super tiredd luhs .
I qot pull by my CLEVER marmiie .!
Thanks to her , im awake .
" Ytdd soo early slpp , Today soo late still dunnwann wakeup . "
Im tired oks ?.
"Piq ar , uu !. "
OMG .! Im an alien . Not a piq .
Venus planet doesnt have a piq exist okayys ?.
Hahas .
Alvin went for th National Parade thinqy this afternoon ,
till late in th niqht .

Means , only Robin is with me nd my marmiie .
Today , there's peace . (:

YESTERDAY ,

In celebratinq with Youth day ,

We had be your-self day .

Allowed to wear home clothes to school .
FUN :D

Durinq assembly ,

MrGomez came up with thoise kind of serious face .

I tot tht hes qoinq to scold those ppl who din apply th school rules .

But , instead .
He praise everyone tht we wore nice nd found youth in us .

Dnt , din have practical .

MrSoonq showed us a powerpoint presentation which he had to forward out .

Its an email or somethinq .

With those kind of chain letter with it .

Th presentation is about those poor country .

I rmb one scene very clearly .

Tht child , was as small as th bird which eat human dead bodies .

Unknowinq whether a qirl or a quy ,

Th child , was crawlinq too th food camp or somethinq 1km away .

While , tht bird behind was waitinq for th child to die .

So tht , its could feed on it .

Th child is really damn skinny laas .

Th bones could be seen easily with jus skins coverinq it .

I was like , OMG .!

Poor child .

I should feel fortuate of not havinq this kind of situation with me .

Social studies ,

almst fall aslp in class .

Busy copy notes nd thts all .

Nothinq much .

I couldnt believe tht new chemistry cher would make th lesson soo fun .

Students who answered his ques , qets sweets .
everyone is like shoutinq out th ans .

Make th classroom so lively once aqain :D

"Be yourself is without socks . "

Said by MrChew .

As , he saw me takinq out my shoes in his class nd ,

without socks .

Hahas .!

Im chanqinq to slippers .
Both , look nd feels wierd wearinq sch shoes with th clothes ii wore tht day .

Meet Baby after tht ,

Train-edd to Lavender .

Done with his stuffs ,

Bus-edd home .

I sleep on with lap for th rest of th journey .

Simply , too tired .

Hasnt seen him for 5days .

Got home ,

he stayed for lunch .

Eat tqtr nd off he qo .

Say byebye thn qo bath lers .

&& ltr , out with Fiona .

Shes qoinq off to dunnknw whr tml .

Forqt whrs tht .

But , is overseas .

Th currency thr is OMG der nice .
Spore , 1buck ; equal thr , 600plusplus bucks lehh .!
Fiona , have a nice trip (:

Friday , Yuanchinq arts fest .

Compulsary .!

Rawrrs .!

Today , post super lonq uhs .

Off to bath lers .
Byeeee .

Im currently addicted to th sonq , 知道 .
Its simply nice uhs (:

To Baby :
wo xianq zhi dao de donq xi hen duo hen duo .
wo xianq zhi dao wo shi fou cuo ler .
我是不是已经不在你的心中 逗留 .
我不知所措
你的一举一动 , 我的心被牵着走 .
zen me jue de , ni zai duo zhe wo .
ke shi , wo hai shi hen xianq yin wei ni er fu chu .
wo bu zhi dao wei she me .
wo hen luan .
si tian ler ,
wo xianq zhi dao ni xin li hai you meiyou wo .
wo xianq zhi dao ni hai you meiyou xianq zhe wo .
yi qe ranq wo zhidao de shi ,
wo hai yi ranq xianq zhe ni .
wo yi ran hai ai zhe ni .


Could anyone tell me ,
Life chanqed .
He said tht i've chanqed .
I aqree .
I now learnt how to hide my feelinqs .
Learnt to bear with thinqs .
But , ii still couldnt learn how to move on in relationship .
I bu xiao xin cut dao my finqer durinq dnt .
Im like wearinq a fake mask .
Im smilinq on th outside ,
cryinq in th inside .
Friends nd relationship , ii couldnt handle both well enouqh .
Baby seems to be happy nowadays .
Without me , he seems mre happy .
I quess , im on my own now .

Feelinq , Super down .
Today , didnt went to schh .
SICK :x
Due to th laksa yesterday .
Jus nw , had a quarrel with Baby .
Althouqh , now everythinq okay ler .
But , ii somehow feel tht thr's a qap in btw th both of us .
Thrs one thinq , ii know .
I wanna sustain this relationship .
Fiona , qdluck to ur semi-finals tml :D
I will support uu der (:
Dunn worry eh :DD

To baby :
uu can do whtever uu wann to me ,
Jus dunn inorqe me .
Thts wht ii only ask .
Hope our relationship will last :x

Lyrics tht seems to speak out wht ii wanna say to uu .

虽然收敛了许多的情感,
还是泄漏了我的不安,
于是你开始冷淡,
我也开始问自己该怎么办?
如果你知道我的遗憾,
千万不要再不以为然,
我的生活已经混乱,
到处飘流却始终靠不了岸.
这是我最后, 最美, 最真, 最心碎的留言.
喔....爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
如果你知道我的遗憾,
千万不要再不以为然,
我的生活已经混乱,
到处飘流却始终靠不了岸.
这是我最后, 最美, 最真, 最心碎的留言.
喔....爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.